And I am excited!
Julia and I should have a great day. It's our first actual Christmas together, because the last two years I was getting to see her on Christmas day and then we would celebrate Santa coming to Dad's house on the 26th. So this year makes it so so special. I got her the Cinderella table and chairs and a whole bunch of other stuff as well. Today I will spend wrapping the gifts and I am going to call Lori soon to see if she wants to do a little Christmas lunch (the poor kid is at work!). Julia will arrive after church with her mom, and then we are going to bake cookies, write letters to Santa, open the fireplace, and prepare for Santa's arrival. It should be and will be GREAT. Then after Julia goes back to her mom's on Christmas Day, Ali is heading over and I cannot wait to see her. Her and I and Tina are all headed out on Christmas night for what should be a helluva time.
I am so happy to have Julia here today, but I wish I had someone special to share this day with. Christmas without a special someone in my life kinda sucks.
Sara and I are back to talking and I am actually beginning to feel a bit bad. This girl simply adores me, is falling in love with me, and it is a crying shame as I just don't feel the same way. I know -- KNOW -- that I could have everything I ever wanted with this woman -- the love, respect, adoration, kinkiness, the sex, everything -- but I just don't have any passion for her and am simply not that physically attracted to her. It actually pisses me off a bit. She is coming to visit in January and we are going to hang out for a week, so I guess we'll just go from there. I could have the complete package with this girl. But, it's just not there. Sigh.
I sincerely hope you all have such a wonderful Christmas. Thanks for listening over the past few months and for your emails. They mean more to me than you know. May God bless you on this very special day.
Remember: You don't find love. Love finds you.
