Happy Friday to one and all!
Ego booster ahead!
So I hung out with Tina and Ali G. last night and had a lot of fun. We're sitting around talking and Tina starts talking about one of the guys she used to date. How she didn't like him and pretty much how she wanted him to go away. Ali goes "Oh, is that the guy who thought you were in love with Ed (me)?" I was stunned. I look at Tina, and she goes "I never told you this story before?" I was like "Uh, no!" So she proceeds to tell me that the guy told her that he thought she was in love with me. Wow! And then, she proceeds to tell me that another guy from work thought the same thing! I'm telling you, where there is smoke, there is fire. The three of us talked about sex and uh.... let's just say I think Tina and I would be sexually compatible. We talked about the difference between 'interesting' and 'kinky'. Good stuff. :)
I went to the psychologist yesterday and it went pretty well. I decided to take the stupid meds they want me to. She told me that I don't have to be on it all that long because I told her how concerned I was about being on it long-term. The session went well and she told me that I do have a lot of positive things going on in my life. Surprisingly, she focused alot on how I took the burden of my brother's illness and was the rock for my mom and my dad when they found out, and that can wear down a personal emotionally, which it did. A few months later, and continuing to go through an long-distance emotionally draining relationship (with nothing really concrete to work with), I was never really healed. Factor that in with a broken heart, the ex-wife getting married, and Brad's wife leaving him (she said this was a big one as all those old not-so-good feelings/memories were brought back up again), and that all adds up to having anxiety issues/depression. She made perfect sense. So, I am going to give the stupid meds a try and see what happens. I meet with her again the Monday before I go to Tampa, which is like in two weeks. Like I said, I'm really not that bad, it's just sometimes when I start thinking about the sadness, it just becomes overwhelming sometimes. Anyway, I like her and think she can help me.
I'm excited about my weekend with Julia! Big plans tonight to go to ToysRUs and the McDonalds treehouse. And tomorrow is Gina's birthday party which should be a lot of fun. I really hope I can find the movie Aladdin for her.
I just watched The Office from last night and it was great! Take a chance on me! I popped huge for that.
Perhaps I don't give myself enough credit sometimes. The girl at the laundrymat was hitting on me hard and I could tell that she liked this ol white boy :) Black girls just aren't just my cup of tea (although I must say she was quite cute and I loved that purple lipstick), but very flattering nonetheless. Hmmmm......
I think I'm becoming more and more happy with my physical appearance, and perhaps that gives me more self-confidence and esteem, and therefore being able to communicate better.
One thing at a time today, everything nice, smooth and slow.
Marilyn and I are going to go to the Bums game together. She asked me for some money for the furniture; I'll give her some. Going over it in my mind, I think I have a pretty good idea on how the weekend will work out in regards to her. This whole ordeal is not good for me emotionally at all, and I don't need to talk to her on a daily/weekly basis so she can tell me about all the nights she is going out and places she is going with these douches. I really don't want to here it, and I really don't care. Grow up already, will ya? She's at a very pivotal point in her life and doesn't even realize it. Will she end up more like say Tina or will she end up more like Kirsten? I could actually envision both. Time will tell!
I think that's about it! Hope you all have a great day!! :)
