Damn am I not in a good mood today! :(
The Phils lost yesterday and really didn't play very well at all. Poor Utley went 0-4 with 4Ks. They NEED to win today with Kendrick on the mound to have any chance because if they get behind 0-2 going to Colorado, they're fucked. GO PHILS!
The Flyers start tonight as well, on the road in Calgary, Alberta, Canada. I'll talk more about hockey as the season progresses but I am glad to have it back although I must say that my enthusiasm for it really isn't that high. Maybe I'm still riding the Phillies emotional wave.
I'm still sick, but feeling better today. I talked to my ex-wife yesterday (more on her later) and Julia is feeling better but she has an ear infection now too. I am waiting to here from her if Julia went to school today. Usually on Thursdays when I don't have her for the weekend, Julia stays over and I take her to school on Friday. I absolutely adore having her over, and especially love the idea of getting her ready and taking her to school. Makes me feel so proud. Well, not today. With me being sick, I don't want to get the kid sick again for this weekend. So, not Julia for me today and tonight. :( I will call her later though.
What's this weekend you ask? Well, my exwife is getting married. Yep. I really don't know how I feel about it. I mean, I am glad for her and all I hope it works out and yadda yadda yadda, but I guess I feel pretty sad. Not because of her, I guess because of me. I really have made no headway as far as a long-term relationship goes, especially since I have blown so much time on Marilyn. Christ, I really thought that was the one. Guess not. My exwife is getting married and is gonna be happy, and I'm so completely worse off (in the relationship department) it's not even funny. Bitter a bit? Yeah, probably. I just thought that Marilyn and I would be together for a very long time, and it's hard realizing that it's just not going to happen. I am trying to move on, I really am, but goddamn, when you have your heart smashed into a million pieces, hey, sometimes it's takes a while to pick them all up.
It's been raining here for the past two days. Hard. Sunshine, where are you?
I feel like getting really really drunk.
