Wow, it's been quite a while since I posted here, and that's kind of a shame. Time for an update:
Life isn't going too bad right now, I must admit. I got a superhuge raise at work which I richly deserved, and that takes a lot of pressure off. The Phillies are battling down to the wire and my god do I hope they make the playoffs. I would really really enjoy that. I've been going out more and trying to meet people and girls. I've been spending some time with Tanya (we have a date next Friday) and also Laura from work. I don't know though, I feel lonely. I joined eHarmony because, well, I'm serious about finding someone. I'm still pretty heartbroken over Marilyn, although I am getting better day by day so they say.
My best friend's wife walked out on him. Took the kid up to Lake City 2 hours away and just bolted. Said she didn't love him anymore. Poor kid. I went there last weekend and we had a great time, just partying and bullshitting. Roy and Ric came up and we went to NPR for a night and had a blast. I hooked up too, first time since Marilyn. It was nice to just FUCK, lol. She's a hottie but just young and immature. Well, I'd rather be young and immature then old and immature, right? Anyway, the poor Jaguar, he is just been crushed by the whole ordeal and I really feel for him. He has to be very careful in this situation.
Julia and I have a great weekend planned. We are going to the St. Andrew's high school football game tonight with Tina and Gina, then it is off to the beach tomorrow morning as it is really beautiful here today. Then, her and I will go home and clean up and then head to Beef O Brady's to watch the Penn State game with Lori and Mary, and then home to keep an eye on the Phils. Sunday is big as it is the last day of the season, and then the Eagles play at 8 against the New York Vaginas.
I found a ring today. It's just a thin silver band and I really like it. I'm not much for jewelry at all, but I don't know, this one fits me nice. I'm wearing it on my right thumb. I call it my 'single and looking' ring. :)
Like I said, feeling kinda down today. I don't know if Marilyn realizes how much she hurt me. I don't think she has any concept of what the idea of love is all about, I really don't. She's become this 32 year old partygirl. She seems to be acting the same way now as she did when she was 16. I really don't know why I continue to communicate with her, I really don't. Her beauty is wonderful but beauty is only skin deep if you fuck with people's emotions. Looking at her from the outside, I really don't see how she will be able to have a long-term, honest, manogomous, fulfilling relationship. One person's attention and love with never be enough for her. She's pretty much destroyed the two people in her life that loved her the most (her husband being the other). Reread that last sentence. Seriously. The stupidest mistake in life is thinking the one who hurt you the most will never hurt you again. What a shame.
Other than that, not too bad really. My brother is doing good with his MS and is looking for a job, I miss him. I worry about him alot. My other brother is doing great as he moved to Vermont and is happy. I'm going to see him -- and take a trip to Canada -- in February. My parents are doing good but damn do I worry about them. And of course my Julia is such an angel, such a good girl for me and loves me SO so much. A child's love is an amazing thing.
OK, off to get some lunch. I promise to update this more and maybe even add a few pictures. Feels good to get this down on paper. Virtual paper. :)
